You don't have to love it all.

You don't have to love it all.

I used to have this "should story". 

"I should like gardening and landscaping." 

Only problem is that I DON'T like gardening or landscaping. What I like is gardens and landscapes. I like gardens that other people create: vegetable, rock, zen, flower... I LOVE other people's gardens, but the mere thought of tending to a garden makes me literally want to cry. I have NO desire to tend to a garden. 

The "should story" used to tell me that something was wrong with me because I don't like getting my knees in the earth or my hands dirty. Self-acceptance had mostly rid me of this story, but it snuck back in this week. I really want a front yard pick me up, and I let the story come back. 

BIG mistake

I just left our town common plant sale in tears. My heart literally hurt. And then I realized it was the "should story" bubbling back up, and that I had complete control of letting it go again.

I kept asking myself questions and figured out that what I really want, what I REALLY REALLY want, is to pay someone to landscape my yard. I want to be able to afford that delicious expense that feels so luxurious and abundant at this very moment. I want it so bad that my heart aches when I get really honest with myself. 

This is GOOD NEWS!

Now that I know what's really going on I can do something about it. I can take inspired action. If I didn't keep asking questions I would probably still be in my car crying. There's nothing wrong with crying, but I'd rather keep the tears to a minimum and make shit happen. 

Here's how I do some of the work:


  • Thought:

- "I should like gardening and landscaping."

  • Who does this thought belong to?

    - My scarcity self.

  • What purpose does this thought serve?

    - It's trying to save me money, or show me that I can do it myself.

  • When am I ready to release this thought?

    - Now

  • Where do I need to put this thought next?

    - Aside; it's not a terrible thought. It actually brought me great awareness about what I really want.

  • Why am I giving this thought power?

    - Because it's trying to help me get what I want. I can allow it to make me feel bad about myself, or allow it to help me GROW.

  • How can my WHY and or purpose lead me to my next action?

    • My WHY is GROWTH.

    • GROWTH asks me to ditch the "should story" and keep doing what I'm doing because I am right at the edge of accessing play money. I am right at the surface of a huge expansion and I can either keep going or waste time on this "should story.".

    • GROWTH reminds me that I am in charge. I get to write whatever story I want, and my new story involves paying some who loves gardening and landscaping to bring more joy to my home.

    • GROWTH says, "You don't have to LOVE gardening in order to love life. Honor what's true for you."

This work is EVERYTHING.

I'm on the edge. I can feel a HUGE personal shift unlike anything to date coming. It's right there and it's so freaking amazing. I have the Connected Growth program to thank.

Amanda Kingsley

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